I'd like to say I remain unswayed but I don't know how well I know myself and I want to find the place to find myself and I might need to be shoved in a room and look myself in the eye and ask myself for truth because I'd rather not give it. I'd rather not give in. Drowning in ignorance sometimes feels ok because it doesn't feel it just numbs and numbing is easy because you don't hurt or care but trying is better because then you process and you learn and things aren't ok and it's ok for things not to be ok. It's ok to speak the word "no" when asked if you're doing ok. It's ok to feel bad and sometimes, not always and not even usually, but sometimes it helps to do something good when you feel bad and then you feel better and more understanding about being not ok. I'm going to go define "not ok" I'll let you know later.